Squire Girl's Journal

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo hot to sleep!

Current Mood: hot

Wee-man
Well, my baby is now 5 months old. As per the norm, the journey so far as been a roller coaster ride. One, the has been fun and a learning experience. Today tho, was a bad day. After the wee-man had been up for about 13 hours with little naps, I was at the end of my rope to get him down. I tried nursing him, nope. Leaving him in his crib to cry it out, nope. Poor thing was upset he was shaking like a leaf in a storm!. I tried rocking him, nope, singing, nope. At the least thing I could think of his soother. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mind you this is exciting, because this would be the first time he used his soother. Every time I have tried it before he has spit it out. So, he is hoping he us his soother more often to stop this hard time I want to sleep, but don't want to nurse period. Knowing wee-man, this well be a onetime event!

Current Mood: sleepy

I saw a butterfly yesterday. Even though it's March I can't wait for the summer to come.

Current Mood: relaxed

Well, I still have not managed how to post a picture here. But, besides that trouble things here are well. I am kept busy with my wee man. He's now 2 months old and coming along well. I am happy and greatly enjoying motherhood. So more than anything I came here just to let you know that I am alive and kicking. I *really* want to learn how to post a picture.......Soldoutpuppet if you read this can you come over and help me out?

Current Mood: happy

Well, no one told me that I would be this tried with a new baby. My poor son had to deal with me trying to put his sleeper on the other day at 3 am. The stupid thing just would not go on, and it was pissing mr off. When I paid attention the problem I discovered I was trying to put on him upside down! Poor kid Mommy was to tried to see what she was doing. I have been loving motherhood as well. I wish I could share a cute story of something my son has done, but he is only a month old. Not much to share yet. I still have

Current Mood: relaxed

My Holidays
Well, it a bit a late, but I had a baby boy on Dec. 25! The first Christmas baby in my area. So my Christmas was spent with a couple hours of family visting and the rest in a quite hostpial room. I am tried and very pleased, but man they relly do not tell you just houw exhausting a newborn is. So when I learn how to post pics I'll post one of son son

Current Mood: tired

Well from here is the count down until baby. I have 2 weeks to go. I can`t wait till this is all over now, I am done with being pregnant! Today was the first really uncomfortable day I ve had. Sitting is hard, so standing and walking. When I am sitting I want to be moving, when I am moving I want to be still,....UUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I had an ultrasound done on Thursday to check the fetal weight, and I get some great picks of the baby`s face! It`s frowning, we woke it up. (I don`t know the sex of the baby!) Seeing that makes want this baby even sooner, I mean just think if I can see it pouting with chubby cheeks and all, hoe cute it`s going to be when it finally makes appearance!

Current Mood: uncomfortable

Deadbeat dads
Ok so like 3 weeks ago I called the father of my child crying on the telling I was starving. I need him to give me money so I can eat. (I still have like 4 weeks to go before I have this baby.) He said he would give me money. I paid my bills bought a some groceries, and now I have nothing in my account. I am broke, Christmas is almost here. I am running out of food, and I have no income til they decide how much I get for mat leave. I asked about getting mother's allowance and they told me I could get no more then 500, and they mach that dollar for dollar. So, the fate looks like I won't even get enough money for rent. How I am going to raise a child with A) No where to live or B) No food to eat?

The father has clearly shown me that he doesn't give a shit or I would have money in my account for food or rent or maybe both. So this Christmas is going to be sad even though I am having a baby, which what I want. I am sorry to those who know me, but I can't get you anything for Christmas.

Current Mood: scared

Ok, this happened last week, but I still have to share with you! I work in a retirement home, of course some of the residents have Alzheimer's. My favourtie one that I will call Tina had a suggestive mind frame. We told (the night nurse) that I was pregnant and not overweight, like she told me. That night a bit 2 am he husband calls down very upset! So, the night nurse asked me to come with her in case she needed help. Tins has been known to beat her husband. So up we up, only to discover that Tina was having a baby! So we delivered her "baby" and she went off to sleep to have the rest of the night very quite.

Current Mood: giggly

Well just to start things here are still great. Baby is coming along just find, and mommy is doing very well. So, the only trouble is the dim-witted father of the child. He has been begging to see me since I booted out his lazy ass. So I broke down and agreed to see him on Saturday, much to his true nature he never showed up. But, that's not the best part. He proceed to tell me that he was coming down on Sunday. Sunday, I had plans to go to Anne of Green Gables day at Westfield Heritage Village. I told him that I was busy and no time for him. He told me that I was wrong, and church doesn't take all day! Pissed by that comment I told him fine come and wait for me all day! He didn't show. That was disappointing! So, despite things that are tense with daddy, I am enjoying being pregnant!

Current Mood: good

I don't have a lot to say today. But I thought a quick post to say I am still here would be nice. Yes things are good, and the baby is fine. The growing tummy is a challenge, but all good. I think it's funny I get winded pulling up my socks now!

Current Mood: good

I went for my ultrasound for about 20 weeks today. OMG! it was soo cool to see how much jellybean has grown into a human. I counted 10 fingers, and toes, one heart,and one head(no, I don't know the sex.) I watched it play with it's foot, and turn around a lot! It seems that it does not like show off it's wee face. I am so smitten with seeing my baby like that, watching play and turn and be active, since I hardly feel it at the moment. I can't wait till I go back for my next ultrasound, and see how much it has changed.

Current Mood: excited

I did something today I hae not done in a llllllllllllong time. I wasted the afternoon playing on the computer. Man, I miss that. Soon I won't have the time, so I think I'll get more in on my time off bore my jellybean comes :)

Current Mood: relaxed

I had my first ultrasound yesterday, and found out that I am only eights along and not the twelve like my doctor told me. The lady doing the ultrasound gave the due date of December 30. Too close to my niece's, who the 31st, I was hoping to my baby early December so we wouldn't have to worry about birthday parties. Then, she showed me my baby, and the heart beat! That was so cool! It does not look human yet, but it is there and as a beating heart! I can't wait to see the progress. I have a picture as well, I will show it off to some select friends and family. YEA!!!!!

Current Mood: jubilant

I am not sure why I am so giddy today, but I am. I had a *really* good day with "adopted" mother. That might have a lot to do with it. I haven't been sick today and ate a lot of food. Maybe I am full!

Current Mood: giddy

I have a job interview on Tuesday!!!!! I just hope that I get this job. I hate sitting at home with nothing to do! I sleep way to much and watch too much T.V., so I hope I have this thing called a "job" to keep busy!

Current Mood: hopeful

Ok, my brother as been known to be lazy around the apartment. I now sit beside a smelly garbage can, typing my post. It has been there all week now. I got laid off on Friday, spent part of the weekend cleaning and sleeping. (Wow being pregnant means a lot of sleep). I have been babysitting for my sister all week. I have been home about as much as him, and have done all of HIS dishes and other lite pieces of housework. I said there is a smell in here making me sick. He snarled at me went to bed!

In the morning I will dump the garbage. It's too late know, the people who live by the chute complain if anything is dumped after 10!

But on a happier note I go for my first Ultrasound this weekend, I can't wait!!!!!

Current Mood: frustrated

The news I have been dying to tell people! I am PREGNANT!!!!!!

Current Mood: excited

Is Jesus your personal saviour?
I am perplexed by that question. I was searching the web for crochet patterns to make a baby blanket for my sister, and that very question appeared in large letter to one of the sites? What does that have to do with making a baby blanket?

Current Mood: confused

LOUD!
A most people know apaprtment life sucks! The place upstairs needs to repaired yet agin, and the drilling that they are doing means I can't even hear myself type! I work afternoon, and this the drilling started at 8 am, I hate them.

Current Mood: sleepy

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